Love is Watching Someone Die

"And it came to me then,
that every plan,
is a tiny prayer to father time.

As I stared at my shoes,
In the ICU- that wreaked of piss and 409.

And i ration my breath, as I say to myself that I've already taken too much today.
As each descending peak, on the LCD took you a littler farther away from me..." DCFC

I can't keep from having those words crash into my brain over and over...God I hope my brother gets better, I cant deal with losing another person in my life.
Sorry if this was depressing, that's what it is.